Usually, if I leave a blog for a few months, I very rarely come back to it. However, I feel like I need to just get a bunch of things off my chest.
I'm not sure when I became some sort of Big Gay Goddess, but I guess it's happened. My wonderful Murray came out to his parents and he's been desperately seeking advice on how to make things easier for his parents to digest. And I have no idea what to tell him. I've tried to comfort him and let him know how brave I think he is. However, he wants to tell the world. He's running on the rush of pride and freedom from guilt and I just don't want him to get hurt. I love him dearly and I would not hesitate to crush anything that threatened him. He wanted help coming out and I did the best I could. I mean, I've only come out as bisexual to a few people and none of them were people whom I thought would have bad reactions (with the exception of Matthew, but I'm pretty sure he just ignores it). I haven't even come out to my parents and I probably never will because fuck them. I won't subject myself to that.
But he's so brave and so excited and I just want to hold him and tell him that the world is a shitty shitty place and the closet is so much safer. And that makes me a horrible person. So I'll just support him in whatever he chooses. Because fuck he's amazing.
In other news and off heavy subject: I'm working working working on my new cosplay for next weekend: A lovely little Magikarp Gijinka. Progress is being detailed here~ I have a feeling it's going to be an awesome costume and a lot of fun to wear. Jeremy and Zack are planning on doing Homestuck cosplays of John and Dave respectfully. Both of them seem pretty excited as well. Kaitlin is just going to go and hang around.
Work is slowly trying to kill me. I didn't get a job working at the YMCA or anything like that so I'm working with my mom out at Don Dye's, the manufacturing plant my mom has worked at for like 18 years now. It's not a bad job. Really, it isn't. It's just long hours on your feet with nothing but a fan and a prayer to keep you cool. And with this 100+ temperatures recently, it's just been miserable. But oh well. Only 5 more weeks and then it's back to school. Hooray.
Right?
- Lonesie
