So I guess I haven't posted in a week and I do feel guilty. I guess a lot has just kind of prevented me from sitting down and just sorting out my thoughts. Then I decided to say "fuck organization. These people read a blog called 'slightly offensive and highly erotic.' They get what they pay for."
I went to a convention this weekend. It was a blast. I've started hurting myself again. Not a lot but enough to make the difference. Just enough to show myself that I can still bleed a little. I'm going crazy sitting here and waiting for school to be over or at least until Spring Break. I can't wait until I get into my car and just drive and drive and drive away from this place. I don't really know why I started hurting myself again. I'm so stressed about school and the boyfriend with gifts and such. It feels almost good again. He's on the phone again and just rambling like I love him for. but I know it'll be soon when he starts asking about the Valentine's Day gifts. I was so content this weekend that nothing in the world could have brought me down. And then I had to come back to all of this. Passive agressive girls, classes I don't give two fucks about, and most importantly: people whom I hold no sort of respect for anymore. So few people here I still enjoy talking to. It's annoying and a little depressing. I can't wait until I can become a hikikomori next year. Maybe I won't have to deal with this shit anymore. Get my own place. Come out for classes only. Work a little and spend even less.
Should probably end this before I start rambling more. Don't want to post anything incriminating.
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